Engine

"Engine" is probably the most well-known NMH "non-album track". It's been released in various forums: first on the demo tapes Beauty (a "live" demo version) and Hype City, then as a b-side to the Holland, 1945 vinyl single. That version was recorded "live" in a London Underground station underneath Piccadilly Circus in May '98. While that recording was captured live, it wasn't to a real audience, although one person (probably just a chance commuter) is heard clapping over the sounds of an approaching train at the end. The same version can also be found on the Oh, Merge compilation CD. It's hard to say which is the "definitive" version of the song. A live version from '97 can be found on the Jittery Joe's CD. A bootleg live version recorded at Aquarius Records, San Francisco in 1996 is also a favorite with many fans. The first 3 lines of the song varied somewhat by performance over the years (see "lyrics" below).

While Jeff was often coy about explaining his songs on stage, "Engine" is one for which he often gave backstory. It's a children's song, he'd explain, that he wrote during a brief happy period that somehow squeezed itself into a lingering depression. "I was depressed and my life was completely crumbling around me. And then I wrote that song and got really happy for five minutes. And then I put it down on my answering machine so I wouldn't forget it. And then I got terribly depressed again. And my life began crumbling again. (laughs)"

Available
Beauty demo tape - "live" demo version
Hype City demo tape - demo version
Holland, 1945 single - London Underground station version
Oh, Merge compilation - London Underground station version
Jittery Joe's - live version
various bootlegs - live version

Live
Played live at most of Jeff's solo shows, and occasionally at NMH shows, with Julian often playing saw.

Lyrics

(version 1 - circa 1992-1995)

For I am an engine and I'm holding on
Through endless revisions to state what I mean
To sweet Mrs. Jones who flew out through the window
And landed back home in a garden of green

You're riding alone in the back of a steamer
And steaming yourself in the warm shower spray
And water rolls on off the round captain's belly
Who's talking to tigers from his cafeteria tray

And sweet babies cry for the cool taste of milking
That milky delight that invited us all
And if there's a taste in this life more inviting
Then wake up your windows
And watch as those sweet babies crawl away

(revised first verse - circa 1996, 1997)

For I am an engine and I'm holding on
The world is all bending and breaking from me
For sweetness alone who flew out through the window
And landed back home in a garden of green

 

(revised first verse - circa 1998, 2001)

For I am an engine and I'm rolling on
Through endless revisions to state what I mean
For sweetness alone who flew out through the window
And landed back home in a garden of green

Chords
basically just G, A, C, G (barre chords)

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